Dreaming

Again. Last night I dreamed about You again. When was the last before it? I don't know. Long, long ago. Ironic. I've just prepared for my wedding. Am I scared of it? Yes.

We were in a bank, you were sitting in a chair in front of me, but I didn't recognize you. At that time I saw you smiled and maybe your teammate (I don't remember) in one of the cabins, and speak with a client. I said quietly to the man in front of me, that 'Is that he?'. But the man was also You.

You smiled at me, and ask me to date each other. I was surprised, why me, but I felt myself beautiful and confident, and I go with You to do a date. You said me nice things, but I don't remember exactly, because I were only staring at you. Then I kissed You.

Reverie

Maybe, I am too romantic. I believe in miracles, I believe in happy endings. But real life isn't so romantic, it doesn't know miracles, neither happy endings. Or we just too impatient and faint-hearted. We want the good things immediately, and for a long time.

How could we know what will be the best choice?

...

3 questions to Fernando Alonso

Everything started in August 2003, when I saw the F1 Hungarian GP in TV. Before that I had thought that it is just a boring circling. But my uncle had convinced me to see only one race. It was a very exciting race, where Fernando Alonso, the young driver won, and got a lap to Michael Schumacher. I knew, that he is talented. I've became his fan, who gives me lots of power in life. It is ironic a little bit, but my uncle don't really see F1 nowadays.

Sometimes I think about what I would say if I meet him. So, if I have three questions to the Formula 1 driver, Fernando Alonso, I would ask the following:

Why don't you participate in the ROC (Race of Champions)?

You should go. I don't know that it depends on you, or the organizers, your team, etc... I wish you would be there soon.

Race of Champions 2007 - Fotó: Wikipedia

How about the same questions?

On the one hand, you get the same questions from race to another race, for example: What do you expect from this weekend/circuit/race? On the other hand I mean, that how do you handle those questions, what you've got from the beginning of your career, but there are newer reporters who ask it again and again. I don't know, but I think it can be something like that: What is your favourite band, song... So how you feel about these questions? Are you getting angry, is it boring, or something else?

Which type of street Renault would you offer to a beginner female driver?

I know, you aren't a Renault driver at the moment, but you were when I became your fan. So, I've decided myself for more than 10 years, if once I have a car, I will have a Renault. I've got a driving license, so soon I hope I will have car.

Still in my heart

Sleeping next to him
I am just staring his face
not knowing if I still
love him or leave a space

Why are you still in my heart
in my very heavy heart?
Why don't you just leave?
You'll take me apart.

Sleeping next to him
I just always think
You and I, me and him...
Comes into my head nothing.

So, here I am!

I don't really want to forget English, while I've started learn German. And sometimes, it is easier to write down feelings in a foreign language like a self-protection. Even, it is time to write a blog in English, as well.

So, here I am. Here is Fana, her feelings, her questions, her life, her topics... Everything, who was born because of YOU. You and my feelings in connection with you created Fana. My heart will never forget you. I really hope, even I believe we can meet once again.